Puzzling Myself Out

So this summer I’m trying to figure out where I’m going next, what I want out of life, etc. My whole life has centered around education, and now that I have a nice shiny BFA I’m not sure where to go from here. The summer is mostly going as I expected/going well, but come September I don’t know where I’ll be. I wrote up a description of what I want, I just don’t know the path for getting there:

I want a work environment that makes me feel safe, welcome, and happy. I would like to feel peaceful and stable at work, while having changing job duties, and it would be nice to hang out with my coworkers outside of work. I want somebody to share all of my life with, who respects me, someone I’m passionate about (and is passionate in return) who I can come home to and spend time with in the evenings. I want time to spend in great places and with people I care about. I want a comfortable and cozy home life with a job that supports that, but would rather live and be content with what I have, than be stressed to have material things and achieve more. I’d like to feel pretty and be in attractive surroundings but without going overboard on spending. I’d like to enjoy my youth more than I have in the past, and worry less about the long term.

As part of that, it would be nice to be seen as more stylish and less awkward, though I had probably better come to terms with being awkward. A routine and stability are important to me. I would like to sketch out big ideas, do the brainstorming, and let someone else handle the precision work, and I like organizing things, people, and ideas. I want respect more than I want authority, for people to come to me for solutions, help, or advice, to be proud of what I do and produce, and to know where I fit in my community. I want to have a home and community that includes my workplace, but I do not want work to be my home.

Also I should really post more often…

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